Haha awww I'd be depressed about going back to school.

Mostly because of waking up early.

There is this girl in my class who went to like, Kutztown University, and dropped out for sleeping through a lot of her classes. She's like, "I wish it was for something cool. . . but no" Lol

That's why it's called falling in love, you don't mean to, you just do...Believe me, love is one of the most beautiful surprises. Remember, always smile, you never know who will fall in love for your smile.

XoXo and be happy!

love comes in alot of ways

it could b right under ur nose

Awe, thank you for the comment, I appreciate it :)

-jen.<3

Recreational drugs do nothing for me. Heck, I'm afraid to try anymore cuz I don't think that I am mentally strong enough to handle them. I take a prescribed drug that does work. Symbyax. I guess that's all that matters.

Weed is a good thing to take. I will never think any differently. I think that it should be legalized, like alcohol and cigarrettes. It's been proven those two things can kill you and yet it's never been proven that marijuana is bad for us.

Weed helps to relax and helps us to see things differently. It's not good for me, though, cuz it makes me paranoid and it reinforces the fact that I don't have any feelings. It makes me feel disconnected and very mentally ill.

yeah thats why i dont have lots of close friends cuz i feel as if they cant meet me halfway in being friends ir loving them

[MrsDetroit]

Here's a comment made especially for you. Don't you feel speciaaaaaal? *freaky stalkerish grin*

I know nothing about making friends. I'm just wasting your space. Sorry.

Caseyjane

i kno what u mean brah!! i smoke all da time! everyday u kno what im sayin! i have to have it! its my life u kno! and like u said everytime i lite it up! i feel AMAZING! im alive im awake! i can do anything you kno haha!! but as soon as that high goes away! i want to smoke another one! so i kno what u mean! i feel ya! :):)

Hahah there are few and far who from MDD who actually know what I look like too.

Don't feel bad. I hope you get home fast since your trip is sucking. D:

You have to click the litte.

< thingys > First. then put in the photobucket code.

Or click on the picture box nect to hte link box.

my url is

myspace.com/adamheartshilton

have fun in dc. :]

my studies pretty much consumed my life for a while.

and i got a new boyfriend. from school. which is weird. >.>

But yeah, sorry I didn't write you back D:

I don't even remember getting the email. If you ahve a myspace you can add me and then we'll keep in better touch instead of me bouncing on and off this site.

How is school going fo r you? I had to take summer courses because I was like missing general courses like english and speech, etc, but they're all over on Wednesday.

I'm actually transfering to a different school in Philly. That's why I needed to get those credits before August when I'm moving.

 Thanks for the comment and also for the advice . Your right I do need to forget him but he won't forget me he already has his step brother tellin me stuff on myspace about him... but i will forget cuz i need to move on...dont worry about the shrink app. it should go good if ur calm and collected...later

it may not be a problem that you have or even that he has...it may just not be meant to be, you know? and just because he seems so nice and you think that you should like him more doesn't mean that theres something wrong with you. i dated this guy for like 3 months because he was nice, into me, and he bought me stuff(it really does help) however i realized that i really didn't like him romantically at all. which made breaking up all the harder, cuz he did like me. so anyways...don't force yourself to find sparks if they're not really there.

That's likely to happen once you've been burned before. It sucks, and I totally know what you're saying.

But a reformed man-whore? Not good. That means he knows how to sweet talk girls so that he can get what he wants. Right? Just be careful!

aww its okay, we all do things we're not so proud of

thanks for the note =]

DRUGS?!?!?!

Have you ever taken a drug? yes ive taken a few

If so, how many have you taken? weed, painkillers

Are you pro drug or against drugs? pro

Do you think Marijauna will be legalized in your lifetime? yes

Where is the weirdest place you've ever done drugs? clubs, parking lots

What is your favorite drug of choice? vicodin and weed at the same time

What is your favorite feeling of a drug? The ability to stop thinking, relax and enjoy all the sensations around me

Are there any highs that people don't know about? probably

Why do you do drugs? Chronic pain and the inability to stop thinking

Have you ever shot up heroin or snorted cocaine?no, way way too hardcore for me.
Do your parents know you do drugs? nope as far as i can tell. they might be in denial though.
Do they approve or disapprove? dissaprove most definitely

Do any of your friends do drugs? nope

Do you think you'll ever stop taking drugs? nope

The future isn't what it seems...

What are you going to do with your future? retire, someday
Are you in school right now? no

Do your friends have high hopes for their futures? haha if getting extremely f***ed up and failing all your classes= high hopes for your future

Are your parents supportive of you?Yes

Do you have a dream job? no

Do you think you'll get married? have been, twice 

Have children? already got one

Are you going to stay in touch with everyone from high school? After 20 years, just two ex-girlfriends

Any teachers you're gonna stay in touch with? nope

Are you looking forward to graduating high school/college? Did 20 years ago.

Are you anxious to get out there on your own or scared?N/A

Do you think you'll become rich and famous? Nope

 
What do you NOT want to do in the future? die

LIFE...and how it applies

How's life going so far? eh its been ok.
Anything cool worth mentioning? wouldn't even know where to start

Are you happy? relatively

Do small things make you happy? Yes

Have you ever thought of suicide? no

Have you ever tried? no

Why would you do a thing like that? didn't
How old do you think you're going to be before you die naturally? 70
What makes your life happy? Music, sex, God, porn, superheroes, drugs 
What makes it sad? indecision

What do you take for granted? nothing

What are you really thankful for? family, job, drugs 

Is there anyone you really look up to? not really 

Is life really like a box of chocolates? no

Love and cooties

Are you in love or have you ever been? never, or maybe about 10 times, I'm not sure 

What makes he/she so special? The ability to stop my heart when I see her

Do you think love is overrated? no

What's the prettiest love song ever made? How did you find me here, David Wilcox

What is one thing you would never do to your lover? intentionally hurt them

Do you think sex is important in a relationship? vitally

Do you like kissing more than hugs or vice versa? kissing, most people can hug OK

Is love the same as it's portrayed in the movies as? NO

Let me know what you think

I'm not the best Christian in the world, either, but no one is.  As far as going to hell, the bible doesn't say that only those who don't sin go to heaven, or that those who lead perfect lives.  As a matter of fact, it says that we can't earn it.  It can only be given, and that only to those who believe.  Anyone, preacher, priest or otherwise, who tells you different is just plain wrong.  All the bible says you have to do is believe.  Have faith. 

As to my issue that you commented on, I appreciate the advice, and I probably didn't explain it well, but we used to do a lot of "kinky'' stuff before we got married, but now that we're married she has no interest in it.  In other words, it's not a matter of introducing her to it, she knows and she's done some of it with me, she just doesn't want to anymore.  I've tried to explain how important it is to me several times, but I just don't think she gets it.  Anyway, thanks for the advice, and you did get me curious when you said you were into "weird" stuff.  If you don't want to share, that's fine, but I am curious.   Thanks for the interest, though!

I know what you are thinking, it is gross the way some people treat each other and makes me and Emms very sad. maybe more people should goto church or temple or whatever, I dont know

As for the smokes,   but they do make you feel good

not much help Im afraid

ask me anything

hes far from an a**h*** lol, and the conversations we have range from really weird to really good serious conversations.

anyways thanks for the comment :)

same here <33¢¾

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hahaha sh*t

did you puke

WOOHOO go graphic design

we can work together

or againsts eachother

or just share the everclear next time

yeah the last one ;D

ahhh blehh

yeah sometimes drugs are the only things that makes sense

:/

but i hope you have fun back @ campus

and be more careful with your decisions

cuz itll alll catch up sometime

WOW!!

I don't know what you're going through but i hope that whatever it is you come out on the other side with what you need!

Sorry for your hard times!

Betz

holy crap
everything in your life is like
ka- BAMMMM
: [
i HATE when that happens
do you live on campus
whattahappened?

Good job? I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing =(

i know sometimes i would give anything to just go back in time and pretend things that have happened never do but stil life go's on and u cant stop time and things changing

love and hugs

Your not just another person, you are you.
And you have a wonderful and crazy and amazing life to live.
And it will be like no one else's.
Because you are you, nothing is the same.

You cannot make people good.
They have to find it themselves.

Be well.
<3

I know! I surprised myself when i did those things.
But im so happy that im at a point where im comfortable with myself and my body, (though to a certain degree).

Its like you finally open your eyes, and are living.

So how have you been?
Huggles. xx

[PerpetuallySearching]

ohh.

you bad. bad. bad.
chickieeeee.

oh well i hope you had fun.

:]]

noooooooooooo

not mono
that is the pits D=
i hope you get better soon

and i like ryan
hes not that much of jerk
i mean, i could brag about him all the tiem
or just bitch about the little thigns that piss me off

bitching works for me =D

im not a movie cryer either. hahaha.

mebbe it's just one of "those" days. when i cry that bad, i just sleep. sleep makes me happy.

and happy be-lated anniversary to you and yours. =]

The truth? Some guys are like that. But alot of them, and I mean alot, are truely nice and respectful and will love you till the end of time.

They just hide sometimes, that's all. ;)

omg i reckon hey. Have you seen the video clip to Bitches? Its so f*ing cool! (pokemon lol)

http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/video/mindlessmon.php

<3

whats wrong?

[KeepMySecrets]

I know what you mean by not looking forward to going to work

I am at work right now, started 45mins ago, but it already feels like 45hrs

I can't stand it anymore. I am tired of calling clients and having them wanting to be treated like royalty

At the end of the day, a gal's gotta do what a gal's gotta do. while still stuck at these miserable environments we're at, let's better ourselves so that we won't be stuck here forever

awww yay. no more school.

i forgot to comment you.

jeez im sorry.

how have you been? its been ages; really

cute?..?....CUTE?????

lol GOREGOUS!!!
lol

XD

Hey, thanks lots.
Do you believe that??

PPL dont seem to and its all true
!!

Haha happy birthday!!
&& I'm sorry that he's confusing you like that.
Thats kinda how we are though..
Like we know we are, but its not
"Offical"
Complicated, I know.
Just give it some time,
Then maybe bring it up casually again.
If he still doesnt know,
Then maybe you can be together, without being... together.
Or else, you can always rethink the relationship..
Which isnt fun.
Best of luck though!

emotional janitor. . i'll have to remember that one :)

i know the feeling :(. . sometimes it's better to leave some behind.

get better :)

Ahh I LOVE days like that!!
Dang,
I wish I coulda done that today.
:]

I am so with you on this thought more than you can ever understand!  I love being there for some people, and others just take advantage of it.... ugh!

-mib

yeah. i know how you feel.

you seem reall nice though.

so i dont think you deserve that.

good luck with everything.

That's really cool :)

Glad your day got better

let ur guard down for once! have a good time!

sorry i accidently hit enter. haha.

i was guna say anyways;
just saying ur not a lone in this feeling.

unfortunatly.
i feel the same helpless stupidity.
boys just kinda have that touch.
right when you think things
are working out
you finally have a grip on it.
they go and mess it up.
and mix it up.
twist it up.
and tear it up.

anyways;

Know how you feel!! but it will pass!! Love yourself then others will love you. a few days ago I though my life was over, but I talked to my friend and things are MUCH better. explain how you feel and make guys work hard for you, they'll appreciate you more when they have to put in a little effort to get what they want (meaning: you)

[inside_the_mind_of]

well, I'm happy you realized it when u did...better now then later!

enjoy the single life for awhile!

Um, congrats.  I think...

thanx for thee

commentt. :]].

&& soon you will

find someone who loves you

&& someone who thinks your

beautiful. just dont give up hope.

he'll come sooner or laterr. <33

peaccee. :]]

To start: "its just the current guy im with...turns out hes a dick and this other guy i like, hes quite possibly the coolest guy ive met i jujst ugh i dunno anymore." What is there to figure out... go get what you want baby, and dont stop trying until you have exhausted all options and hope, or you finally get what you really want. 

Now... I want a lot of those things you mention above too, but the one thing I dont want to change is "forget(ting) everything bad that ever happened" because those are the things that I have learned from, what has transformed me to more of an adult along that road, and made me who I am.  I dont want to change who I am, just some of the circumstances around me, and I bet if you look back, and look at yourself now, you also dont want to forget the bad in your life, just find to find some positive in it, and most important learn from those bad things.  If you make mistakes, but learn from them, then you are really on the right track. It is when you repeat those mistakes again and again that you arent doing the right things!  Smile kiddo,  and know I am here!

-mib

Just think positive and life will go your way.

Although every thing you want is not in your control.

Things are the way they are.

Its how you think of yourself that counts.

-PURESHEILD

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                           - girlpowermusic3698

No, because sometimes you are with the wrong person for you and, although the RIGHT person may not come along, a better person does, or someone who may lead you to that right person does and it makes it all better.

-mib